Insomnia – walking through the fog

I suffer with insomnia, I have done since I was 13 or so, in other words a long time. It is a constant companion. It never goes away. There are times that it is worse than others, but it is always here.

So first some context. I average around 3 and 4 hours sleep a night, occasionally 6 or 7 but usually 2-3. That isn’t always all together. Quite often it is in bursts, not a constant sleep. Some days I struggle to get to sleep, others I drop off straight away then wake and struggle to get back to sleep. Sometimes I have broken restless sleep. Continue reading

Social Media – Friend or Foe

Normally I am a fairly active user of social media. I use Twitter and Instagram a lot, I write posts on LinkedIn, I dip in and out of using Facebook. But when I feel a bit low, or when I get a little ‘wound up’ by it I step back.

I don’t delete my accounts or remove the apps from my phone, I just open the apps less and post less. Continue reading

My mental health and me – an awkward relationship

I wrote a post last week on my Mental Health and in it I wrote this ‘I have Mental Health and my Mental Health is similar to my Physical Health. Sometimes I am good, others bad others OK or not really thinking about it.‘. When I wrote it it was kind of a throw away line to express how I felt, but I have spent the last week with it playing on my mind a little. Continue reading

Plan versus Reality

I am a great believer in fate, the concept that things happen for a reason. Often I will tell people that there is always a reason, sometimes it just takes us a while to understand it.

Also I am always telling people that strength often means being able to adapt and continue, that those that we think of as strong are in fact just good at adapting and changing their plans to match their changed situation. Continue reading