I hate you, but love how you make me feel

Sub Heading – My relationship with running. That was the real title, but lets face it, that wouldn’t have grabbed your attention half as easily.

Running is something I have never ever enjoyed, at one stage of my life I used to say ‘nothing in life is worth running for, there will be another train or bus, the only reason to run is if someone is chasing you with a weapon‘. Continue reading →

Finding a new normal.

A few months ago I wrote a post on how I stay grounded when things in my life are challenging. In it I shared with you the steps I take when I feel low and want to connect to when times were good.

The things that I spoke of rely mainly on life being relatively normal, and at that point I had no idea that our whole view on what normal is would change so dramatically, and that life would take such a dramatic turn. Continue reading →

When plans don’t go as we expect … resilience

There is a familiar diagram that shows plan vs reality. It shows that we plan for a smooth journey, linear, a to b, start to finish, dream to reality. But the reality of life is that it is a mess of a journey, up down, back, forth, retracing some steps, facing obstacles along the way that we never thought of. Continue reading →

Insomnia – walking through the fog

I suffer with insomnia, I have done since I was 13 or so, in other words a long time. It is a constant companion. It never goes away. There are times that it is worse than others, but it is always here.

So first some context. I average around 3 and 4 hours sleep a night, occasionally 6 or 7 but usually 2-3. That isn’t always all together. Quite often it is in bursts, not a constant sleep. Some days I struggle to get to sleep, others I drop off straight away then wake and struggle to get back to sleep. Sometimes I have broken restless sleep. Continue reading →

Our attitude to others

This isn’t the post I planned to write and publish today but having observed people and their behaviours over the last couple of days I decided to write this one instead.

Usually people are courteous to each other, on most levels. Occasionally I see people being off hand or rude to others, but I tend to think that they are idiots and the thought leaves my head. Continue reading →

My mental health and me – an awkward relationship

I wrote a post last week on my Mental Health and in it I wrote this ‘I have Mental Health and my Mental Health is similar to my Physical Health. Sometimes I am good, others bad others OK or not really thinking about it.‘. When I wrote it it was kind of a throw away line to express how I felt, but I have spent the last week with it playing on my mind a little. Continue reading →